up to the dates.....

So things these days are going alright.....but latly it seems that im in this funk and its not bad or good i just dont wanna deal with people. and have been looking over the past fw years and wondering where it went wrong....and im not big into god but i think that it might have been this way just bc he wanted it that way. but then again why? its a question i will always ask....bc i dont think me or davis deserved this. and its a constant battle every day for me to keep my opinion to my self and not speak what i feel. i am happy to be talking to an old buddie latly i seem to never get to talk to anymore....and its always good to hear from him then i knw hes ok. and he keeps me updated on the other marines out there. seems to that latly everyone is gettin married or have children, or on baby #2. we have been out of high school for 5 years this may and its odd to think about how much has changed. then i have been thinkin if i were to go back one year from today where was i? recently single again, and running off every chance i had. last year was crazy for me....well dec2008 to fdec 2009 was one horrid year....but i think in the end i has made me a stronger person...or atleast i like to think so. i want a man who can make me forget all about the past and only knw the present and future. but those guys are hard to find.....or i find something about them that i just cant stand. anyways this is kinda long so off for now....thinkin i will post more often....but who knws.